Tuesday, December 14, 2004

Experiencing Wendy

On my way home from work today I caught the end of Wendy Williams reading a letter from a 15 year old little girl who for the past three years she has been getting raped by her stepfather and now she's pregnant with this sick bastard’s child. This poor girl is worried about telling mother out of fear that her own mother would disown her.

The whole thing disgusted me and not because I don’t think things like that happen but because I hear of them happening all too often and usually now a days the mothers choose the men over there own child.

I watch my daughter tonight as she sleeps and it screams in my head “HOW CAN ANY WOMAN CHOOSE A MAN OVER THERE CHILD; THE ONLY PERSON THAT COULD EVER BE THAT CLOSE TO YOU.”

I am not the most religious person but I do know for a fact that God made us the givers of life for a reason and he didn’t give that responsibility...that power to men for a reason. No offense to them but they really couldn’t handle it.

I have had the same argument over and over with my family because they don’t believe that I will never allow another man to share my home besides my daughter’s father and now that we are not together but kind of together not even he can share my home. Call me over protective or just plan crazy but I am not willing to gamble with my daughte's innocence for a man. (Not that her father has ever done anything to her but I refuse to put her thought fighting and that’s what we do when we live together)

Before I kind of sort of got back together my daughter’s father I dated a few guys and the only way they lasted more than a week was if I never heard a word about meeting my daughter. My thing was they were dating me not my daughter she was mine & not to be shared.

Again call me strict and over-protective I really don’t care…I’m doing what I know is best for my daughter and I’ll fight lions and tigers to do it

I really thought about this…I honestly did and the only man that is allowed to around in my house freely is my cat and even he got his balls cut.

I know that my mind will forever stay with that girl. There will be nights that my mind will drift back to her and wonder “Is her soul still living?”…because honestly it’s so hard to live with something like that.

But I think; no I know that the one question that will forever haunt my mind will be how can any men or women do this to an innocent child? How can they take there trust away like that?...there innocence?

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