Tuesday, January 03, 2006

NEGATIVITY

My family has an abundance of negativity and usually it's all thrown at me. Like I don't think things through. They treat me like I'm 13 and not 31.

I have been writing about having to move in April which to be honest I am looking forward to it. Moving for me is like a fresh start - clean slate. He wants me to find an apartment and keep paying the outrages prices in rent. And not being able to even claim it on my taxes to me seeridiculouslus. I am ready to own something. I mean shit if I am going to pay $1000 a month should't I be able to own the property. But of course my father tried to find every possible negative reason as to why I shouldn't do it; oh the area is bad but what neighborhood doesn't have it moment, what if you don't get the loan come wouldn't I make sure I got it first. Which makes me want it even more just to prove to him I can do it.

And then there is my bed-buddy the other negative person in my life. To be honest I really think that because he doesn't understand that I can stretch a dollar and bleed a penny till it dies. So the fact that I make such little bit of money and I can still have a home and all the things that I have; drives him crazy. Rather then being proud because I can do this on my own.

So what do I say about these negative people who try to fuck with my head "FUCK'EM IT'S NOT GOING TO WORK THIS TIME!"

5 comments:

Zetirix said...

You pay $1,000 a month?! Wow, there're houses around this town that you could easily pay that much to own them in a few years. Though in this town, there's not as much work either. Just to give you some perspective.

- Z

Mica said...

It's a little more like 1300 if I have no court dates to go to

Zetirix said...

That's blows my mind... the job I just left paid me that much the entire time I was there... almost 3 months.

- Z

Mica said...

That's what you got for 3 moths worth of work... Wow

Zetirix said...

What can you say when you work for minimal wage, and not even 40 per week.

- Z