LORD GIVE ME STRENGTH

Allow me by start off by saying HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY LITTLE BABY GIRL!!!! My beautiful little girl turned 8 years old this weekend. So I m the proud mommy of an 8 year old. It kind of freaks me out that one day I’m going to turn around and I am going to have teenage daughter one day. I love being a mother; I love being her mother.

But I will never throw another party with my family again. They really pissed me off. I was going to throw my daughter’s party in the park by my house but because of the rain I had to change it at the last to Chucky Cheese. Which I must say I hate that place. It loud and it can get crazy; not to mention that the place is expensive. My parents know after all the crap I’ve been through with court and that credit card crap that my money is tight. I told them that I didn’t have a lot of money.

I swear the money the food arrived (which took forever for it to get there) my father dived into the food. Mind he told my mother “Let’s have a big breakfast this way we don’t have to eat.” And he was the first driving me crazy about the food and soda. My whole family jumped at the food that by the time the kids came back to the table there was no more pizza.

Fucked up huh?!

I had to order another pie just for them. My daughter was upset that she had to wait. What I don’t get is why did the adults buy their own food considering they all know about my money problems?????

And the answer to that question is simple…MR. JERK-OFF was there. And when he’s around they want him to pay for everything. They don’t care that I’ve told them about a million times that he’s crying poverty and even if he did have money he’s NOT going to let me know it. They enjoy seeing me going off on him and I wasn’t about to do that not on my daughter birthday.

After the food I just wanted to end the party so it was cake time and presents time. So as I am cutting the cake I had my mother calling every 5 minutes to just repeat the same thing over and over. They were driving m crazy.

And the whole time MR. JERK-OFF is watching and what does he tell me “I see your family hasn’t changed when it comes to you.”

And what he meant by that is this…I have the ONLY grandchild in the family and when it come my family that doesn’t matter to them. They don’t go out of the way to see her or call her or anything. My mother was trying to get out of buy her a birthday gift. So you would think that because she is the only grandchild they would do more but they don’t.


I tell you I was SuperMom on Sunday.

I will say this next year I’m doing something else for her. Something just for her and her friends and if my family wants to do something they can do it themselves…cause I’ve had it