Thursday, March 30, 2006


I woke up this morning and stepped outside and fell in love.


It is gorgeous outside. I might love New York but I HATE the winters. I feel like I am not myself. But anyway who cares the spring is here

Every time the Spring Season it makes me step back and look at myself. I start looking at my body…the woman’s body is an amazing.


Artwork By: Olivia De Berardinis

Pretty women wonder where my secret lies I'm not cute or built to suit a model's fashion size But when I start to tell them They think I'm telling lies. I say

It's in the reach of my arms The span of my hips The stride of my steps The curl of my lips. I'm a woman Phenomenally Phenomenal woman That's me.

I walk into a room Just as cool as you please And to a man The fellows stand or Fall down on their knees Then they swarm around me A hive of honey bees. I say

It's the fire in my eyes And the flash of my teeth The swing of my waist And the joy in my feet. I'm a woman Phenomenally Phenomenal woman That's me.

Men themselves have wondered What they see in me They try so much But they can't touch My inner mystery. When I try to show them They say they still can't see. I say

It's in the arch of my back The sun of my smile The ride of my breasts The grace of my style. I'm a woman Phenomenally Phenomenal woman That's me.

Now you understand Just why my head's not bowed I don't shout or jump about Or have to talk real loud When you see me passing It ought to make you proud. I say

It's in the click of my heels The bend of my hair The palm of my hand The need for my care. 'Cause I'm a woman Phenomenally Phenomenal woman That's me!!!!



Monday, March 27, 2006


Today is one of those days...You know one of those days that everything goes well but still you had to climb over every hill and bump God but on earth.

I went to court today to fight for my child support...The term child support sounds like a joke. I have to fight for that asshole to support his daughter and I mean the right way. Not just running to Toys R Us; to feed her need for a new toy but the fact that the child has other needs important needs like soap, shampoo, shit to wash her cloths with, clothing, shoes...The list could go on and on. That asshole wants to give me $40.42 a week. Typing it now makes me laugh and in court I got less $25.00 a week which by the way is even funnier. And he didn't even show up in court again. Which is 3x's funnier!!!!!

I say my day went well because I didn't have to see him (Which is always good) and I know that he is scared right now cause I really don't give a shit what he does or tries...In the end I am a tax paying, no criminal record having, high school graduated, college credit having (missing like 30 credits for Associates degrees) , I've lived at the same address for the past 3 1/2 years...I have constancy in my life. He has a criminal back , barely a high school education, and nothing solid in his life and he thinks that I am going to cave he's NUTS!!!!!!!

Tuesday, March 21, 2006


My bed-buddy can really fuck up a good thing. Last night I took advantage of the fact that my daughter wasn’t coming home last night and had a sleep over with my bed-buddy. Because lately he’s been getting on my last nerve (I’ll explain why later).

So last night we hung out had a good time in my house laughed (which is something we rarely do cause he so fucken serious) joked around I watched South Park my usual thing. Then we had some awesome sex, which made me really happy.

We feel asleep in each other’s arms. It was nice…so nice that I didn’t even hear my alarm this morning. So I get up and do my thing and then I gently wake him up. He gets up and the first thing out of his mouth is “Shit your apartment is hot. You shouldn’t have to pay your rent if it’s this hot. What the fuck?” So I say I live over the boiler room what do you expect? Besides I spoke with the building people and nothing and can be done. What does he say? “Give me a fucken break…that’s bullshit. You shouldn’t have to live like this. I wouldn’t pay for this.”

Now after having a good night with someone would that be the first thing out of you mouth first thing in the morning. I could see if he was suffering in the heat but I sleep with the AC on so my room is always cold. He just has nothing better to do but complain.

So why do I keep him around? Honestly cause someone kidnapped my vibrator and I have to get my rocks off some how. Now I know that must sound fucked up but at least I am honest.

Thursday, March 16, 2006


The only wise words in the Godfather - It's a motto that I live my life by. That one and You can catch more bees with honey then you can with vinegar.

I start my blog today this way because MR. JERK-OFF actually thinks that my daughter is going to keep secrets from me. He’s an idiot (if you couldn’t tell that already) and now I know that his sister is just as dumb as he is.

She kissed my ass trying to get my child to sleep over her house and I knew that she wasn’t going to disappointment me either. All the crap that she talked that it was for her kids it was really for my daughter’s father to see on a day that isn’t his. He thinks that he’s getting over on me but he isn’t.

He just fucked things up for his sister because I am know body’s fool and I will not be allowing my daughter to sleep over there again.

And she’s so dumb that she (MR. JERK-OFF’s sister) believes all his bullshit lies.

The only way that I would believe anything that comes out that man’s mouth (and I use the term MAN very loosely) is if my God almighty came down from heaven sat me down and told me that he made that ASSHOLE incapable of lying. And I know that day will never happen.


Friday, March 10, 2006


Hey people!!!

I have been so busy; blissfully busy. I say blissfully busy because I was depressed just feeling so out of it. But then one day I can into work and spoke to the girl that work with (which by the way we didn’t get along before but now we do) and talking to her opened up the door of happiness and confidence for me!!!

I am still going back to court with the JERK-OFF and I am still up to eyeballs in debt but I honestly feel like this whole thing will work out for me.

Now as for me moving I’m going to anymore for a few reasons:
I can’t afford the moving expenses
Why should that piece of shit run me out of my house that I worked so hard for me to get.

The other thing is my blog is NOT moving. I hope he does find me on the web and reads my life because I DON’T CARE ANYMORE!!!!

He can go screw himself!!!

So people I’m BACK & I’m HERE TO STAY!!!!!