I know that I haven’t updated my blog in a while but I have been so busy, crazy and honestly a little depressed but I am feeling better now.
Things with the JERK-OFF haven’t changed except for the fact that I made sure that he could pick up my daughter from school any more. I brought the paper work to the school so I took care of that. I had to go to court on the 12th and the JERK-OFF never showed up. So the court is issuing another summons for him I am not to sure what will happen when he doesn’t show up that time.
Friends of mine have seen him and told me that he looks like a bum and I tell them that’s because he is one. He refuses to get an apartment because then I can prove to the courts that he is getting money somehow. That’s ok because I have other plans for him in court.
And my dry spell is over I finally had sex for my birthday with an old friend. It was ok I just have a fear that he (my bed buddy) doesn’t start to read into things too much. I mean I was honest with him and told I am in no place for a relationship. And he claims to understand but who knows if he really does.
I still owe money on my rent $500.00 I know that I will come up the money some how I am going to try and cash in my daughter’s bonds (of course I replace them when I am on solid ground) I know that I am not going to get face value for them but if I can get at least ½ of what they are worth it will really help.
I am trying to get back on schedule with my plans but I have to because if I don’t it like letting him win; it’s like giving him the power and that is not happening.
I just hate being in a rut. But I have to keep telling myself that God only gives what I can handle which means I can handle this.