On the Bus
As I stated yesterday reborn and a new out look on all I see. I some what cleared the air with my friend last night via IM. Yes call me chicken but I know my temper and I really wasn’t trying to bring that out cause via IM I was losing my temper badly I could imagine how much worse it would have been over the phone.
My Maride-novio (my Tita’s nick-name for my Man LOL which means half husband half boyfriend...she’s a pisser) he was a little happy that our friendship was on the rocks. To him she calls too much (which she does but like anyone if I can answer I answer if not I’ll get back to them later) and because in his warp little mind he swears she wants me…but to him everyone wants me so blah, blah. Which by the way I so don’t see that but that doesn’t matter because as I say ~
“its up to me and whether I cross over or cheat who cares who wants me just be pour I come home to you“.
So I told him last night we some what made up and of course he had to throw his two cents in about how I should be with her now with after everything and more blah, blah. I listened to all he had to say and at the end of his lecture I stood up made myself a cocktail looked him dead in his face and said ~
“I know how to handle my friendship…I hear what your saying but I’m not going to cut her out of my life completely. I do know that things are different now between her and I.”
Freaken Jealous Pee-pee swingers.
As for my daughter I am taking tomorrow off and I’m taking her to Play Land and we are going to have a picnic on the little beach (granted if it doesn’t rain I have to come up with a plan B just in case it rains).
Fuck that no one and I mean No (especially in my family) one is going to make my daughter feel like no one likes her or cares about her. Screw that I’d rather take her and move away then have her feel like that.
So this morning I woke up with a little bit of a heavy heart but I am looking at everything with fresh eyes and new look and the out look is Fuckem! Yes they can make me sad but I REFUSE to let them get me down.