Think, think, think...that's all I seem to do lately. But these past few days of thoughts that have been echoing in my mind have been good. I have been kind of beating myself up. Something I believe I need to do a little more often. And now I will blog it so that I will always see and be reminded.
There are things in my life that I should have already done in my life and yes I know with everything that I been going through of course it's easy to lose track but I am saying COME ON NOW!!! I know that I will always write about him because he will always be in my life and he will always do shit to piss me off but it's not my whole world it shouldn't be. (I'm talking about MR. JERK-OFF)
I have been lazy lately lost in a kind of depression I guess maybe because this whole situation can be very consuming and unless you want to be consumed it can get very draining.
And then the other night after I had some great sex with my bed buddy (yes he's improved lucky me but I had a lot to do with it) I thought to myself if I could find my sexual passion again (which was something I missed a lot) how hard could it be for me fulfill the rest of the things that I want. So my list of things that I need:
1.) and as stupid as this sounds I HAVE TO LEARN HOW TO DRIVE. Yes I am a 31 year old single mother living in New York who does know how to drive.
2.) I am on role with my novel but I did slow down for while a lot of it has to do with the fact that I have to leave from Wed-Fri for 2 hour 5:30-7:30 to take my little one to see MR. JERK-OFF so it kind of throws me off my game. But I am getting back on it.
3.) make a home for my little one and me
4.) get my mind, body and spirit in tune
Now I know that all that of that my sound pretty simple for some people but for me it's not that easy.