I woke up this morning and it was on of those days…you know you just don’t want to be bothered and the last thing you want to is go to work or be responsible. It could be because it’s “Over the Hump Day” and that day always sucks cause the weekend can’t come any faster. Or it could be because it’s so cold out and that sucks because who wants to be outside in this kind of weather any way. It could also because I have no plans this weekend and I am tired of playing sick so that my ex doesn’t bombard with phone calls about going out.
He has to be the thickest man I know; he’s an all or nothing kind of guy. Either we’re together and things are fine (for him but I’m miserable) or we’re not together and then he makes my life a living hell with his macho “If I can’t have know one can” attitude.
I have learned that the last thing I need right now in my life is a boyfriend and that includes my ex. I haven’t made my mark yet in life and every time I get into a relationship I forget what I need to do and put all my time and energy on the guy.
I have an understanding with myself because I know that I have trust issues that I would have a boyfriend (that means a guy that meets the family or my daughter) until after she’s in college. My family thinks that I am crazy and that something like that is unreasonable. But to be honest I don’t think so. I watch the news everyday and I hear all these stories about things that happen to children; like just last week some guy shook his girl’s son so hard he died. No, No, No; that’s ok I don’t need a man home with me and my daughter no thank you. As it is now her school already knows that I am very over-protective with her; her father or I has to go with her on all her trips.
I know not all men are wacko’s but I am not will to take that chance with my daughter sorry; no thank you.Na, the last thing I need a boyfriend; what I need is a life!!!!!