Monday, June 12, 2006
LET'S TALK ABOUT SEX BABY....
Something just popped in my mind as I sit here watching Wide Swap. I think that the reason why my relationships never really worked with men is because the ones that I am involved with don't take an interest in my life. Not a single guy that I ever been with ever took and interest in my writing or any thing I read; nothing.
And as I type this you would think that I would be sad depressed about this epiphany but I'm not. Because to be honest it is partly my fault cause I never made myself...Me because I never really made myself important to them. I mean I always knew (and I don't want to sound conceded or cocky either) that I was great in the sack. I mean shit how hard can it be to be good at something you enjoy but then that's all that mattered. Now don't get me wrong I got the I Love You's and the will you marry me (with the ring and all) and as flattered as I was and as much as believed that they love me how could they; they didn't really know me...No the real me.
I know that's why this celibacy choose is so right. It's my way of finding out all the things that are important to me.
I must sound like the only slut but really I am not I just get into these long dramatic relationships with endings that only happen in movies or soap operas. HA HA !!!! Like I always tell my friend "My life is like a channel 47 Novella"