Saturday, December 12, 2009
I said it before I will say it again I look at this man and I sometimes wonder "What the hell goes through his mind?"
I have been up since 5:30am and usually I channel surf one of my favorite pass times (It helps me sleep) but today I couldn't do that...why? Because they shut off my cable.
Now here is were I question him...
He gets mad at me because the cable is $360 (2 months) & I still am not working...(Oh i could have been working by now but at a job where I would be coming home after 6:30pm and i would have to still to homework with the little one and cook-he can't have both-I'vealways said that)
Now for as long as I have been on unemployment (which is like 2 months) its comes once a week and not all that much (not like my pay check) So here is the question why get mad??? And if you have the $$$ why dont you pay it???
No he would rather take me to dinner or a movie...now dont get me wrong I love all that but not until our bills are paid....Hello!
All I know is that work needs to come my way soon because as soon as i start working Im lighting a fire under his ass to get a job as well.
I made it a point that if we were going to get back together I didn't want a repeat of our past & him not working is a repeat because I am already lying about what he's doing & how Im getting by.
Not to mention the slight bit of disappointment I am getting from his lack of enthusiasm of my new found love for passion...I mean crap do I always have to be the one that jumps him...I mean shit 2 months & I am the only one who is looking for work & I'm suppose to be always stay in mood...ha ha ha it's a wonder why I do what I do.