Thursday, December 03, 2009

That's I can stand & I can't Stand no more

I am the type of person who can only take Oh so much...I am also the type of person who will try her hardest to bend over backward to help and please a person (the pleasing part I'm trying to change)

But when the holidays roll around it can be a huge weight on my shoulders...I have a sister who hates me (for reasons then other then I was born I have no clue why) and a family who just doesn't get me.

I spent 30 years of my life trying to please them and I can honestly say the last 5 years of my have been the best because they were mine...I turned 35 this year but for the past 5 years I have said to hell with rest of them and what they think. I starting thinking "Shit life is too short for me to make everyone else happy...considering know one is thinking of my happiness"

So this year or rather now towards the end of this year...I have decided to become a little selfish...I am concerned and worried about me (of course and my little girl she is an unconsciousness thought I am a conscience thought)